I'm trying my best to keep myself SANE

Papers to prepare.

Memorization to be done.

Chalet to be plan.

Everything within these short period of time.

Can totally make you feel so small.

I HATE EXAMS!

They make me lose my sleeps.

They make my system go hay wired.

They make pimples appear magically.

They make me so agitated.

They make me so tired.

And now a small lizard inside my room is pissing me off.

A lot of thoughts have had been going through my brain.

A lot of things to think

A lot of things to keep inside.

A lot of things make me awake at night.

A lot of things keep me off-center

A lot of things to worry about.

I've to keep things going while keeping myself stress free.

Most importantly. KEEP MYSELF SANE!

... Like Mr Zul said: "Life is not always fair. There's something you are good at, and there's something you are not good at. Fight the battles you can win."

I'm no good in memorizations.

I'm no good in exams.

And LIFE is indeed never fair.

No matter how hard I tried to study.

No matter how much efforts I put it inside academically.

My results.

ALWAYS disappoints me.

ALWAYS~

"... You get disappointed, because you set your standard too high."

TRUE!

But if I don't, WHO will be there to fulfill my parents wish into getting inside a local Uni?

WHAT will my future be w/o a DEGREE?

I dun have cash to study overseas.

I dun have a path to choose.

The only path is LOCAL UNI.

And this is NOT A BATTLE that I can win!

Because, I'm already suffering at this very stage!

Foreign students to fight the ranking with you.

Foreign students WHO ARE WAY SMARTER.

And I'm just someone normal.

Someone that don't stand out academically or appearance-wise.

I'm trying to fight a battle.

A battle that I have no choice.

A battle that I might not win.

A battle ...

3 papers down. 2 more to go.

P.S If I don't vent it out, I will be insane.

And why every time, even after I ate, my stomach will GROWLED SO LOUDLY inside the exams hall? I hate it. TOTALLY.

Dear stomach,

I FEED YOU. STOP MAKING SO MUCH NOISE DURING MY PAPERS. I CANT CONCENTRATE WITH YOU MAKING SO MUCH NOISE! THANKYOU!