Christmas

As usual. With Family.

Eating + Shopping.

Nothing NEW really.

Presents were given to us in advanced.

Cash. Presents. Restaurants. Shoppings. TVs.

Boring. Plain. Reunion. Blah ~

No Santa. No Snow. No Christmas Feel.

Just PACKED (in Orchard), Bloated, Tired, Fattening ... etc ...

Nothing SPECIAL.

Nothing EXCITING.

Nothing DIFFERENT.

... I meant the good way ... NOT THE BAD!

18 years!

Still the same.

Being like this for 18 years.

I don't know if it is me.

Or because there's seriously NOTHING to do.

No friends.

No boyfriend.

Friends are either celebrating with family or other friends.

Boyfriend? Ya IF I HAVE ONE.

I would never have any! My parents DON'T ALLOW ME TO DATE.

It's always STUDY FIRST!

FAMILY FIRST!

Some geek's or nerd's life.

And I can't deny that I am NOT.

Cause I'm living like one.

Spects ... sometimes Contacts.

No make up. Some people think I have it on. =S

Maybe ... the brows. Hey! I've got no brows, thats why I need it to frame my face.

I'm JEALOUS of my brother.

Able to have friends celebrating with him.

Unlike me.

I WANT TO. I have friends calling me out to party.

BUT ... I've to be back home before 8 at night =.-

And the parties usually get started earliest at 5pm ....

And if you calculate the time you need to travel there and back. The time you need to wait for trains. The time you need to spend in toilet. The time you need to walk there.

5pm - 8pm? ... With those time calculated in it, instead of having 3 hrs of PARTY like CRAZY. You only have like 1 hr & 30 mins to PARTY or maybe less.

What PARTY are you PARTYING?

I wonder.

I really hope to have something different this countdown.

But I know PERFECTLY that I can't this year.

"BACK HOME BEFORE 8 AT NIGHT"???!!

&

"NO BOYFRIEND/ DATING ALLOWED WHEN STUDYING"??!!!

I don't know what to expect anymore.