What's Hard

People always said that when one is in a relationship, there's always up n down.

And the down part is the hardest to survive.

And I can prove u people wrong.

What's hardest is, to survive when you've being in darkness for so many years.

And you know, so clearly, that in the years ahead, it's the same.

Darkness where bad things always repeat itself,

No matter how hard you've tried to change the situations.

It comes to you even more often.

And every time it comes to you,

It hits you even harder.

I've already tried.

I'm already exhausted.

I'm dried of blood.

I've always hope someone out there can just pull me out of these miseries.

A miracle to happen.

Sometimes, I prayed in darkness that everything will be alright the next day I wake up.

Sometimes, I prayed there will be shooting stars to grant my wishes.

Sometimes, I prayed GOD will hear the shouts within me.

Sometimes, I prayed these things are just nightmares.

Sometimes, I prayed I'm not ALIVE at all.

But no matter how hard I prayed, not once was successful.

The most painful thing is,

I kept these things within me.

The reasons?

I want to keep this friendship.

I want to keep my parents away from those worries.